Well, I guess some wouldn’t say it’s infidelity.. but my “husband” reached out to an old affair partner (who he cheated on his first wife with) on Snapchat when I was 2 months pp after our third baby. He had her sexy photos on the string in his Snapchat from back when they used to hook up. He sent her a flirty video and she never responded, thankfully, and obviously he saw her old sexy photos since he didn’t delete them. She lives across the country from us so I’m guessing he was just trying to spark up a conversation. He had a physical affair with this girl on his first wife and also a Snapchat long distance talking for a while while they were together.

I’m destroyed. Absolutely destroyed… my husband wasn’t the person who I thought he was. We had always spoke about since the beginning that even adding an old fling or ex on social especially Snapchat is cheating and cause for divorce. He agreed and swore up and down for years. Lo and behold… the mother fucker stabbed me in the back

We have 3 under 5 years old. So that’s the only reason why I haven’t left him. I have good days and bad days. I’ll never get over it. It’ll always be in the back of my mind. I’m hoping in time it’ll fade and fade.. always there but more hidden as time heals a lot of wounds. But I’ll never look at him the same as my knight in shining armor as cheesy as that sounds. I can’t get her images out of my mind and the fact he was thinking about this girl AGAIN on his second marriage!!

It’s been 4 months since I found out and I’m still having these awful days of defeat. Where I wish I could run away and never look back. Other days we will be having a good day and I can be enjoying myself, yet it’s still there. For example, we will be laughing or cuddling, but I’m thinking about it in that very moment.

For those who went through something similar (please not for the people who haven’t been in this situation because it’s so different when you actually experience it…) …for those who went through something similar, we’re you able to make it work? After time does it fade? I’ll never see him the same you guys. I’m so hurt. I invested all these years to this man. These babies. And this man just says “he was depressed and knew it was wrong so deleted her next day.” I’m just so sad..