I’ve never posted here and wouldn’t be surprised if this isn’t seen but I need to get stuff off my chest. I have a 9 month old baby girl and a wonderful husband but things have been hard lately. My husband is in the military and luckily hasn’t been deployed since we’ve been together but he is leaving for the entire month of April. The longest we’ve been apart since meeting is two weeks. I’m dreading it because I know it’s going to be hard on him and our baby. As a result of this I’ve been extremely depressed and anxious. I have (had? Not sure how long it lasts as she’s my first child) very bad postpartum depression and it feels. Like I’m right back where I was months ago if not worse. Another thing adding onto that is that my husband and I had a courthouse wedding. Our families bullied us out of having a big wedding. I personally never saw myself getting married so it wasn’t a huge deal at first. But when we started talking more and planning and I found my dress I never got, it kind of made me sad. Now when my husband gets back he’s a groomsman in his friends wedding so I’m not handling the fact he’s going to walk down the aisle with another girl, eat with her, and dance with her. It’s not a jealousy of “he’s going to cheat on me” it’s more so that I never got to do those things with him. So I get to sit on the sideline with our baby and watch him do all of these things with someone else. It’s breaking my heart. I’m just at such a low point and I don’t know how to climb back up. I just want some validation that I’m not crazy to feel this way and maybe some tips to help? Thanks