Somewhere I’m not wanted

I just turned 24 and broke my lease and ended up asking my mother can i move back in with her it was $7000+ to break lease i just returned the keys and moved out and it’s currently on my credit report now any apartment i talk to tells me i have to pay that balance off in order to move in.

I just don’t know what to do anymore being in a house where everyone is annoyed with every little thing the kids do is stressful and every time i say they’re kids that’s what they do they say beat them.

Why would i beat a child to stay quiet all day or beat them because they’re crying.

My mom bf has constantly been texting my mom complaining about every little noise or thing the kids do and even text me on accident one time.

She then tells me she’s tired of him texting her and to basically fix the problem and I’m like they’re kids how do i tell a child to stop talking, laughing, yelling/mumbling..

My kids could be in there own world trying to have fun and all you’ll hear is someone yelling shut up my mom would laugh or even say shut up now..

i got into a argument with my mom bf about not touching my kids and i was in the wrong, my family came into town and my 1 year old was playing the trash can lid and everyone was laughing because it seemed like he was amazed and as I’m getting up to go get him all you see is my mom bf rushing to him hits him hard and pushes him away and i told him to don’t ever touch my child again and he proceeds to say I’ll touch you and i said it’ll be the last time you touch anyone and argument broke out and my mom and grandma said i was in the wrong.

My uncles who went to store and wasn’t there at the time said i wasn’t in the wrong, my little cousin said i wasn’t in the wrong she said he’s a child and clearly doesn’t understand and she’s 13 year old and when i called my cousin she was like huh they’re kids I’m not understanding and I’m like apparently I’m supposed to beat kids for every sound and every thing they do then when I’m telling them to be quiet my mom would Text me saying she’s tired of me telling them to be quiet so it’s like i can’t win.

I drove to my grandma house in a different state barely no money just so the kids can be free for a couple weeks… my grandma never tells my mom she’s wrong even though she know she is.. my grandma knows i was wasting money on hotels every weekend just so the kids can be kids for a little bit.

Now my mom is texting me basically saying i need to go but In a good way because she knows my grandma is going to say something, she stayed with my grandma until she was 30 something and my grandma paid half of daycare a month and pretty much raised me and now my mom basically shrugs her shoulders when i say i need help, I applied for a single mother group home to Stay at or i think imma text my aunt and ask her if i could move in with her and can she get me into her job because she in a different state.

I no longer want to be here because everyone acts weird and knowing they’re texting each other makes me just rather be homeless in my car with the kids.

My mom bf complain about the kids laughing/mumbling/playing, he complain when i wash clothes, he complain when i cook my mom even told me to start going to the laundry mat because he told her i was putting to much clothes In the washer and i told her i wasn’t but apparently she listens to him so i stopped washing clothes and one day he went in her room to say i was washing clothes and the washer was shaking because of to much clothes but it was my mom washing and he just walks out..

When my grandma was here a couple weeks ago she asked me why i had so much dirty clothes when it’s washer and dryer a couple steps away and i didn’t say anything.. she then washes my clothes and give the kids a bath and say if i need help i need to ask for it but she doesn’t understand that i don’t have the help.

My grandma has to many people living with her my lil cuz and both uncles so she’s not a option and i just don’t know what to do.

I hate seeing the kids stuck in this room all day or constantly getting told shut up.

I take them to the park or i just go on a drive when i sometimes don’t have the gas too just so they can get out, can’t even let them play in the front yard without someone complaining.