Overcoming child SA

Long story short, I was sexually assaulted by my uncle(penetration) as a child and I was accused by wife for ‘seducing’ him.

Moving on, this has affected my sexual life as an adult. I have gotten therapy and although I have moved from what happened somehow… it’s still affecting me. I have been married for 8 years and I still avoid sex with my husband. The only way I willingly enjoy sex with him is if I have a glass of wine or two. Weird?