So I just saw online that a close and good friend of mine that I was dating early into my pregnancy , just became not single anymore. And I have been trying to pin point my exact feelings on the situation. I don’t truly feel like I feel bad or bitter about this person finding someone else. Yet I still do feel a slight feeling of rejection and I guess just not feeling good enough to be with someone right now. I know my primary focus is on myself (career , job work and pregnancy to my two twin boys) and for the most part that is where my attention has been as recently. But I don’t feel ashamed about trying to go out and date as well as try to also be SAFELY SEXUAL if I want to be and if it feels safe physically or emotionally to do. I know my being pregnant as a single female/mom (who does not know exactly whom the babies father is) and add in that I have twins is gonna make my dating life difficult now and into the future and for the most part I am very aware of that at present as well know that once the boys are her that is only gonna be harder to do and probably will not have time at all to spend on dating or other personal things period. But as challenging as will probably end up being and becoming for me I don’t want to entirely give up the idea or hope I can find romance /friendship and love with partner. Just my luck in dating life has been, that I don’t always feels deserving of someone wanting me or desiring me on that level. And it hurts but I know it I keep my head held high eventually love will find me when it and I are ready