I am a very sick person. I have a chronic illness and I have been sick since utero.

I was never supposed to be here with you all. At all.

I got extremely sick recently, so sick that I don’t remember all of it, and I’m so fucking sick of it at this point. That was a very near death moment and I beat it and even the doctors were like “I cannot believe you are alive.”

there was a huge event I was invited to after literally leaving the hospital and my mom told me “you can stay behind, nobody will be mad at you.” And I said “a day in hell will I miss this.”

My mother got soft with me for one of the first times in her life today and said “I have never seen someone fight so hard to be so fucking badass. You have been doing it since the day I found out I was pregnant. Nobody expected you to even make it to birth, but here you are.” And she just looked at me with so much pride.

It was nice

I plan to be here for a while.