You make the sacrifice

I was talking to a friend the other day about moms being rundown. She told me that she got to a point where she just knew she had to give up anything for her. I feel/felt like I’m there too. I told my husband about it. Like, in order for me to get any sleep that I’m gonna have out our child to bed at 8, then shower and get in bed myself. That way I can hopefully start getting a full night sleep and not getting sick all the time. I have been sick multiple times a month since last August. You name it. COVID, stomach flu, sinus infections, strep throat, bronchitis, and colds. I am so beyond tired. But the only time I have to myself ALL DAY is at night. So besides all the day to day stuff, then trying to remember to bathe, make sure my husband’s emotional/sexual needs are met, and whatever else; I’ll find myself staying up till 1 in the morning. Why? Because I so badly don’t want to go to sleep and give up that time alone.

But after talking to my friend I guess that’s the only thing I can do. It’s a season in life and I guess I just need to make the sacrifice?