Why I don’t leave my house

I need to vent. I’m so irritated and frustrated. I don’t leave my house much because my husband, all he does is work so the days he doesn’t, if I have the money I’ll go out for a bit. I’ve been needing new shirts because being pregnant my pre-pregnancy shirts are fitting very tight. So I wanted to look for some shirts. I wanted to leave early because I hate crowds. I become overwhelmed. So I prefer going to places as soon as they open. Well my husband picked up a few hours and I was like really? The only day and he chooses to pick up hours he doesn’t need to work. Awesome. So we leave at 12:30pm, stores were already fucking ridiculous and packed. I tried a couple different places, no luck. So I went o TJ Maxx and my kids were just being awful. I never do anything for myself. I just wanted some clothes but anytime I take my kids and husband with me I feel guilty. My husband rather be somewhere else and my kids aren’t having it. I’d go by myself but my cars been acting up and I don’t trust driving it alone where my husband won’t be to help. I guess I get more frustrated because my husband sees I’m always home with kids. Sees I revolve my life around him and them. I just kind of wish he’d acknowledge thy at a bit and be like “yeah she deserves a day. An afternoon. I’m gonna plan something.” But he doesn’t and I don’t even think he has anything planned for Mother’s Day. I got so annoyed I just left and I’m heading back home.