Abortion at 9 weeks

I had an abortion at 9 weeks, something I never thought I’d have to do. Medically I got diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder shortly after I found out I was pregnant and my first child resulted in postpartum cardiomyopathy and I almost died. The guy I was with we were only together less then a month when I got pregnant then he turned into a psycho screaming at me hitting stuff throwing fits threatening to kill himself. I have a toddler that has a variety of medical issues and requires a lot of care. I don’t exactly know how I feel, I am sad and this is hard and the bleeding is a constant reminder. No one knows, and it’s extremely lonely. But also I know it’s for the best and I made the right choice for me and my son, medically I’d be willing to take the risk some day under the right circumstances but to deal with everything on my own I know my body would give up on me before I could make it to 30 weeks.