I’m into it, but I’ve never gone farther than playing with plugs/fingers on my own, but mostly plugs because i usually have long nails. My boyfriend didn’t seem into it, then he started getting more into it. And I’ve explained that you can’t just stick it in and it needs prep, but the other day, he just tried to push in and it hurt like hellllllll. Like I handed him the lube, and then he just tried to shove it in. I told him to stop and we did something else, but afterwards I mentioned something about anal and he got pissy that I made him stop when he “finally tried the thing” that I like. I told him I need prep time and he made some bs excuse about how his dick is small so it shouldn’t. Like small or not, if it’s bigger than your finger, i need time to get looser.

I had plugs and lube on hand in case he wanted to try, but he ignored my warning because he thinks below average = cannot be felt in any orifice.

Update: forgot about this post until I got a new comment. I dumped him and realized that almost every instance of intimacy between us is legally defined as abuse or assault. It felt just disrespectful in the moment but it was more than disrespectful. I don’t regret a lot, but I regret ever meeting him.