It’s getting annoying

Every time me and my bd have sex I give him a blowjob, back then I use to get pleasure in return but for the last 3 years I’ve just been sucking his p*nis with nothing in return. We’ve talked about it and he claims it’s what’s needed to get him hard. It’s getting hard to have sex with him cause I know what’s coming and not every time I want something hitting my tonsils.

The penetration is great and I don’t want to have sex with anyone bc I’m scared of change plus stds /Sri rates are rising but I wanna get head too!!

A lot of things that turn me on we never get to do.