Done with my mentally and verbal abusive marriage

Long post... please no back lash or rude/mean comments. I have been abused enough... My husband and i have been married now for 4 years. At first eveything was perfect. It was beautiful. Then shortly after everything went to hell and fast. He non stop yells at me, down grades me, treats me like utter trash. We havent had sex in over 2 years now... if he kisses me its like he has to force himself to do it. He wont hug me, hold me, comfort me. Nothing... and if im crying he will just walk away. Every day he literally screams and yells at me for things i did wrong or forgot to do. And if someone else upsets him he takes it out on me... i have gotton to the point i can not stand him. I dont want to be anywhere near him at all for fear that i will get yelled at or cussed out... if he is anywhere near me i have instant fear! I wish i never married him. I want out! I want away from him... he drives me mad! He is so controlling over me that if my phone rings he immediately asks me whos calling, and if i dont answer him right away he gets very angery and yells WHO THE FUCK IS CALLING YOU! Any mesage or notification i get he questions who it is... what we are talking about ect... if my neighbor calls me and we talk he gets really mad. As soon as i hang up the phone, what the fuck where you laughing at what did he say? And i literally have to tell him pritty much everything said on thw call. If i try to go outside to talk on the phone he will either fallow me out or watch me on thw camera. If i get a call and literally dont know who it is and reject the call he will ask me who it was, if i tell him i dont know (witch honestly i dont know) he will bring up my fucking phone records to see who called me and to make shure im not lieing!!! If i eat something and decides not to eat that day he will literally shame me! Well at least you got to fucking eat today, must be nice to go to bed with food on your stomach, i havent fucking ate all damn day and you got to eat atleast. My neighbor sent me a picture of himself the other day that i thought was a good picture so i saved it to my phone so i could use it for his call contact. He seen it and went off on me for haveing a pitcure of him on my phone. When i tried to exsplaine why i had it he called me a lieing bitch and told me that i need to go fuck him... then said oh i bet you already are fucking him since you go over there all the time..... no i go over there to get thw hell away from this house and to get away from his abuse. I also go there becuse he is safe to me... i want to leave my husband. I want out of this! But i cant leave i have a dog and 3 birds that i HAVE TO TAKE WITH ME.... also becuse i have no money and no place to go. And i know if i try to file for devorce he will fight me and not let me leave and i have a feeling if i did try to leave things would get even worce. Im traped it seems my only way out is to wait for nature to take its course and wait for him to pass (we have a age gap) i am 30 and he is 59 or hope he comes to his sences and end up leaveing me. EDIT. he is the only one with a car, my family is over 1,000 miles away. I have no way to leave and no where to go. He wont let me get a job. So i can not work nore have money.