The audacity

Im not a forging person and I know most females want to stay with their child’s father. My daughters dad lives with me u til he finds a place. In the mean time there are days it’s easier and some days it’s hard. I was with him and treated him very well and he cheated on me and played me. During our entire relationship it was him always flirting or doing. Something he wasn’t suppose to. Although he has come clean with alot of things and has done things for me to try to forgive him I just can’t. I honestly don’t even want to coparent respectfully I feel like he violated and made me feel completely small. I worked everyday when he lost his job and took care of him and he did that. Im not sure if it’s a pride thing or whatever is it wrong for me to resentment him. I have put his feelings first for along time and I’m to the point where yes he apologized I just dont care. Is it okay to only speak when spoken too because I’m at this point where I could care less about anything.