I just wanted some reassurance , my little boy is 4 weeks old and through out my pregnancy I was always so set on breastfeeding, anyway he was born at 10lb 2 and our breastfeeding journey has not been easy, in fact I resent it , his got reflux and every-time I breast feed he is sick curdled milk and lots of it I’ve tried cutting out dairy since a couple days after he was born it’s made no difference, we tried him on anti reflux formula just to see how it goes and he seems so much happier and settled on it I’ve still been breastfeeding in between but every-time I do his sick and unsettled, I had a bad high- risk pregnancy it was hard mentally we where told there was a high chance he would have Down syndrome , he was born without it , I’d prepared myself to have a baby with DS then suddenly he didn’t, I am for this reason and the fact his so unsettled and cry’s most the time going on anti depressants which are not recommended whilst breastfeeding , I’m very low and I can’t stop myself having terrible thoughts and anxiety about something constantly being wrong with him. Has anyone had a similar breastfeeding experience, i so wanted it to be something natural and comforting for him but it’s been the complete opposite and now I feel guilty for stopping and not giving him the best.