flashbacks

recently i’ve been having flashbacks of when i was raped when i’m having sex/leading up to sex with my beautiful boyfriend. it was in 2021. i have not had a single panic attack about it before, but i’ve had two in the span of two months. i feel horrible about it, because he feels as though he triggers it but it has nothing to do with him. he’s so gentle, and kind, and so unbelievably patient with me each time it has happened. i’m thinking of going to therapy for it, but that seems to much of a step.

anyone else had a similar experience?