Hey lovelies, I need any advice I can get right now. My boyfriend (20) and I (21) started dating during college about 9 months ago (knew each other for over 2 years) and it was pretty easy aside from a few debacles regarding boundaries. Summer comes along and we’re long distance but it’s been really hard for me. (I struggle with borderline personality disorder and it affects my perspective on things sometimes which is why I can’t act on something until I’ve been feeling it for a while and I can’t tell if this is one of those times or if my feelings are valid for context). I love a lot of parts about him and he’s the most patient and understanding person anyone could find. I feel that I could never find anyone better than him just because of how amazing he is. But I feel that he seems to like me way more than I like him. I’m generally a pretty independent person and can live my life without people but this worries me because I’m not sure if that means I should break up with him because I’m not as attached as he is? I love him but he’s very vanilla for me sometimes in every way possible (granted I’m his first for everything so I should be the one teaching him but I mean even outside of bedroom talk) and Idk if I’m getting multiple icks from how unresourceful/needy he is of general knowledge like making food and doing his homework which is making me slightly lose some physical attraction to him or if I’m self sabotaging myself because I’m in a healthy relationship. I’m not sure if this is something I can ask advice over or if this is something I need to just figure out. Any advice would be really appreciated. I just need some friendly advice❤️