So I've always been very pro porn, separately and alone. It's been fun for us to share and talk about what the other is into.

Im currently about 13 weeks pregnant and have been put on pelvic rest, for the forseeable future. Hubby has been great, and says well I'm a grown man I can take care if myself haha. Naturally I figured this would mean more porn and "alone" time for him.

Last week I hopped on his laptop to Google something and I saw a few tabbed porn pages...well I'm one nosy bitch so I looked. They were all porn actresses that look almost identical to his ex-fiance. Something just struck me wrong about it and it's been nagging me. There's no variety in what he's been choosing and what's obviously getting him off. I could very well be hormonal and sensitive about it.

But the more I think about it the more I realize what bothers me is that myself and these women have NOTHING in common. They are all thin, with larger but not as large as my breasts. Pale "ghost nipples", naturally red hair and fair skin with blue or green eyes. I seriously thought one of them was actually his ex. He admits the reason he stayed with her so long was purely her appearance, she was a trophy to him and it was all wrong.

Point is I'm virtually opposite of his type and have always viewed it as well you can love vanilla and also enjoy the hell outta some rocky road but I'm still sitting here all emotional over it.