Hello, Im a 31 yr old mom of 2yr old twin girls and I am sad and burnt out! Ive been struggling with low mood for as long as I can remember... I work 12hour days, I get home and theirs 2 hours left of the day to feed the girls and get ready for bed. My fuse is short, i dont want to yell at my babies but the constant crying and making messes is unbearable.

My partner is a narcissist and he doesn't understand mental health. If anything he uses it against me in arguments calling me lazy and telling me that I cant keep anything clean. He also works 12s and has the girls in the day and I come home and do the night shift. He's not always bad but when hes bad hes a monster. I know im going to have to leave him but im so overwhelmed. We have a house that he refuses to leave so the girls and i will have to find a new place to live eventually. I just feel like im in Hell mentally. Depression runs in my family and i feel hopeless thinking there is no way out. I pray, i try to stay covered by God but i still feel so heavy. I have no friends, I feel like my life is a tragedy. I tried taking antidepressants after i had my twins but they made me tired and i cant afford to be any more tired but i feel like they are my only option to survive so i might try them again. I usually prefer natural remedies but I feel ive tried so many with no result. Any kind words or advice on depression meds or remedies would be great. Thank you.