Everyone is ignoring my concerns

I’m a first time mum she’s 5 months on the younger side (23) and I work a stressful work environment in sports so I struggle badly with anxiety. I’ve been the the sport that I work in since I was young very young so there’s always been pressure to preform and that manifested in to severe anxiety as I got older like I’m terrified of hoovers because the sound is overstimulating. So I’d been on anti depressants before my daughter was born to help me but personally I just felt really drugged up and numb like everything was just a blur. So after I had my daughter I stopped taking them. But my anxiety got worse after having her and I knew my time was limited with her since I only had 14 payed weeks off only 8 after she was born and I was desperate to get back to work for this once in a lifetime opportunity after she was born. As a new mum I had concerns like everyone does and my anxiety doesn’t help my brain is constantly in overdrive thinking about worse case scenarios but if I tell anyone that I’m struggling except for my best friend it’s you should probably just take your meds when I’ve explained that they don’t work for me. No one listens! No one seems to care except for my best friend that I’m overwhelmed and she doesn’t always have the time to be with me and I don’t expect her too she has her own life. I just don’t know if I can handle this anymore it’s a mental circus and if I try to reach out I don’t get much support I don’t know if mother hood was right for me.