False hope

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I found out I was pregnant august 5th and miscarriage august 13th. While at the hospital getting an ultrasound the tech said he didn’t see anything in my uterus not even the sac but that I was very swollen. He told me that he felt I had either passed the sac already or that it hadn’t even developed yet and in 5 weeks I could check again to see if it will form. He believed it was 60/40 leaning more toward pregnancy due to the swelling. Despite hearing this I knew I lost my baby and the obgyn said in her opinion I had a miscarriage. Yet as much as I know I lost my baby and as much as I’m not experiencing any symptoms anymore (I had been swelling on my feet and I had major nipple pain) I still have some false hope that some how I’ll be in the 1% who have had a misdiagnosis. I saw a pregnancy test in my drawer today and all I wanna do is take it but Ik if it does come out positive it’s probably just that my hcg levels aren’t back to 0. I haven’t gone back to the doctor since it happened which I know is bad cause I need to make sure I’m okay physically but I’ve barely been able to get out of bed. I’ll probably call in the morning but I just needed to let this out. Also I still haven’t gotten my period back but I’ve been having discharge like I’m ovulating again.