I dont want to wait anymore

Been with my BD for 4yrs ... he's been dead weight for a minute. Before we lived together we were 15minutes away and he would rarely see the baby. Even when I offered to let him come over ot bring her to him.

His excuse was he didn't want to over stay his welcome. He was busy when I tried to give the baby to him. He was mad I kept the money during tax time.

I got my own place and car. He begged and cried and kept coming over to my place and I gave in eventually. Since he's been here. He's helped with rent and would help with groceries, clean ..whatever BUT...

He would still be himself meaning. He's told me he can't stand me. Called me a whore. Took my car and would be gone hrs at a time.. come back arguingnwith me. And last night he showered at 2a waking me up.. knowing I have to take the kids to school, go to work myself and my body was already aching..

Idk he says he wants to help more and get a car so he can pick up the kids but I've been saying this. I'm tired. He said he's been changing since he's been with me..

But idk I feel I can't care anymore. I want him gone but I feel guilty bc he seems to want n to change and I don't want to be responsible for breaking up our family.

He says I give up to quick. But I can't overlook his shitty behavior. Hes 43 but im afraid of him possibly changing and being better for the next woman. @Lizza- no i dont want him to be like this forever it would just hurt me bc i wanted us to be a family but i cant keep tolerating disrespect but if does better for the next women it would make me feel if i just hung in there a little longer maybe he wouldve done it for me.