Yesterday I was 6 weeks and 3 days. Had been cramping and bleeding dark brown and bright red on and off. Doctors told me to go to ER for labs around 8am. I went and they took multiple blood samples. Did vaginal ultrasound and regular ultrasounds. Around 10am the Doctor’s enter the room and say “you are having an Ectopic Pregnancy” and needed to dissolve the baby asap! 3 ways to go about it. A shot that dissolves baby in a week. Or pills that dissolve baby in about 2 weeks and need to be seen. In office once a day every week. Or surgery diagnostic laparoscopy, Right salpingostomy. The baby was in my fallopian tube. They wanted me to make a decision at that very second all I could do was cry. I was alone and afraid. They left and continued to come back multiple times. I’ve never dreamed of aborting my own child. Well that’s what the decision felt like to me. It was honestly the hardest decision to make. Not being able to see hold touch or name my unborn baby. I believe the child will come back to me. At 11:24am they came back and told me because my blood levels were low and I’m currently breast feeding my 2 year old that I could only opt for the surgery. So we signed up for surgery and they moved me into prep. As I laid there alone. Praying to God that I make it out of this. These scriptures came to mind. Psalm 56:3-4 - When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise - in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid" (John 14:27). If you let Him, Jesus will give you His peace that is more powerful than any fear.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

Between 1pm and 5pm I was in surgery. I made it thru And surgery was successful. Besides a minor hiccup in the surgical clean up. I am home healing and trying to come to terms with what happened yesterday. My heart hurts. Please send positive vibes and good energy ✨💖