Ok, so Hi! My name is Jade, I've been with my partner/bestfriend for 14 months roughly now. I had the implannon in my arm for about 4 years (a year overdue) and decided about 10 months ago, to get it removed so we can start planning....Well, so far, things have not been working out. I've had irregular periods, which always messes with my head, when it comes a week late, and I think this is actually it, only to be disappointed, EVERY TIME... now to make things worse, my 19yr old little sister just have birth to a beautiful little girl, which I love! But it kills me.. Aaand my 16yo little sister just found out she is 6wks pregnant to a 27yo man who beats her... I dont understand when people tell me I stress too much and that thats the reason I dont conceive when other people, in far worse situations, seem to be falling pregnant willy nilly...I've never been much of a religious character, but I find myself in spirits so low, that now I sit and pray, hoping that HE will hear me out, and grant me some strength and patience in this misery... I never knew how MUCH I wanted it, and now that I am struggling to have a child, I didnt realise how hard it would be and how much it would hurt to sit idly by and watch others be blessed and start their family. .. when you want it so bad and you try so hard, I believe we do deserve it... and our day will come... Here's to never losing hope ladies ♡♥♡