Last year on January 16th , my fiancés brother held a birthday party at their parents house for his wife . It was me my fiancé our closest friends and family . We were drinking and having a good time . My fiancé decided he was going to sleep it was around 2:00 maybe  . So I went with him changed into my pjs . And went to have a smoke with my at the time best friend . Who was and is still dating my fiancés cousin . He went inside and "went to sleep " (mind you this is not his first time doing this . He did it to his ex wife's daughter and never got caught ). I had come downstairs to grab my cigarets and he grabbed me and raped me . In that time no one had come looking for me . No one heard me . And I didn't fight back I didn't even move . I just cried .i felt so helpless and scared  . I debated on if I should tell anyone . Crying shaking and throwing up   I tried to tell my fiancé but he was passed out drunk barley concious enough to talk to me . So I went to his brother .. Thinking he would protect me and keep me safe . He did the complete opposite . No one would take me to the hospital . Everyone yelling and screaming . My fiancés brothers wife telling me not to go to the hospital asking me if I knew what I was about to do . I didn't care I called my parents and told my dad what happened he come at 3:00 in the morning crying his eyes out . I only 17 at the time . His little girl . Was defiled . Taken against my will . He told me ever since I was a little girl . Never get to the point where you can't control yourself . And I at this time was blaming myself . Maybe I had given him the impression it was okay . It was my fault cause I went inside. I shouldn't have been so scared to fight back. It was my fault I was there that night and if I weren't nothing would have happened to me ....