I want to scream. I'm hurting so hard right now and no one wants to talk about it (except my husband and sister). Like it's almost impolite. I had a miscarriage. I'm hurting. My friends are getting pregnant without a worry at all. I'm terrified. But we can't, we shouldn't talk about it because it's a negative and sad topic. I'm THAT friend that people look at in the corner of their eye, wondering how badly their good news is hurting me. Wishing I wasn't there so that they could fully enjoy their moment. No matter how hard I smile, I can tell that I'm that person for them. And I f***ing hate it.