trauma bonded

Does it ever stop can it ever get better ❤️‍🩹 why can’t I just walk away why can’t I get away. Married a monster but I love him I see past the crazy past the narcissistic and abusive behavior the manipulation he’s turning into a skitso. I run but he finds me I come home home isn’t home. We lost our baby last year and I have a bonus baby with him who just turned four been in his life since 3 months my heart hurts to Just walk away from the child I know he isn’t biologically mine.

I left sept first it broke me I was gone all month he asked me come home said we will get help professionally marriage counseling we havnt done one class since oct 1st. I know I may get back lash. But how does one get away and stay away from this. Has anyone ever been trauma bounded help