To try, or not to try; that is the question

So my husband and I are coming up on our second year anniversary. When we first got married he was pretty much anti conceiving (even though he said he was fine with whatever happens) and absolutely would have no drop of semen come near me. I keep going back and forth with the idea and I can't decide if I want to become pregnant or not.

He works in North Dakota and has found a permanent job so I've decided to move up there (hopefully soon!).

All of my friends are pregnant/have kids and it makes me feel left out in a way. I would love to have a baby and I want to understand what pregnancy is like so bad it hurts some times, but there are days that I look at my friends (who do nothing but revolve around their children and go crazy because the have no self time) and I want to stay kidless forever.

Does it just take getting pregnant or something to settle this mentally?

How many women out there can leave baby with dad for a few hours or so and relax?

And if you can't, how do you deal with revolving around your kid(s) all the time?

Thank you in advance!