I’m 29 years old (turning 30 in about 3 months) and just had my very first pregnancy, as well as my first abortion. [If you’re into astrology, this is now part of my Saturn 🪐 Return story. Whew.]

I have been under birth control very early into my sexually active years of about 8-9 years. Then I stopped taking birth control on my mid 20s as I wanted to have kids in the future. As I grow into entering my early adulthood, I have firmly decided that I do want to have kids anymore due to changes and multiple factors.

I tested very positive the first time I took the pregnancy test on October 16, 2023 when I was 11 days late of my period. I felt my body off since I was mildly nauseous on and off. I shared the news with the guy I’m currently dating (who I’m active with) right that moment. Shared with him that I will be aborting it and made my appointment with the Planned Parenthood clinic right away. [Note: every guy I have been dating since I stopped taking Birth Control knew in the very beginning of engaging with them that I do not want kids.] So he understood my decision and supported me verbally (as we’re in a LDR situation) throughout.

I started my MA on October 20, 2023 at 11:45am. The clinic confirmed I was 6w3d pregnant that day and it was measured at 6mm. I requested a copy of my ultrasound for my records (since I never believed I’d ever be pregnant, so this was an L for me— which I’m grateful for tbh as I’m not ashamed of it at all. I’m also just glad that I have options and knew what I wanted to do and being able to be prepared for it). The staff made me feel comfortable throughout my whole visit and made sure I was advised of everything in the process.

The next day of my MA journey was the most cruel for my body (but then again, that was expected lol). I definitely felt mild anxiety because of the potential symptoms, but overall— I just wanted to get it over with. The feelings of guilt or sadness did occur to me only very briefly. Otherwise, I’m hoping that my body heals through this timely as I go through heavy cramps, blood clots, and passing stools. The following day was much better. Less cramps and less blood clots.

My hormones goes in a whammy every time I get on any hormonal meds and off of it. So I’m expecting the adjustments back to my normal cycle will take my body some time. Just doing my best to tend to my body and allowing it to heal in its own pace at the moment.

UPDATE 1: I was spotting more on my second week of my MA journey, but no more spotting the last 2-3 days of my 2nd week. I also didn’t have any pregnancy symptoms anymore and no cramps. I got a lil concern because my discharge was looking SUS (it was light red color and very liquid) but I suspect it was just the changes in my hormones since my spotting stopped anyway. Had my follow up appointment on November 3rd (which is the end date of my 2nd week) and confirmed that the MA was successful via ultrasound. This trip, I asked for the birth control rings. I wanted to start it the same day or next day, however, I began to bleed 🩸 again and then cramps to follow exactly the next day November 4th (which would be the start of my 3 week of my MA journey). I was told that I may still experience some cramps and spotting in the few more weeks, and that my real period will show up within the time frame of 4-6 weeks. Well, I’m on my 3rd week of my MA and this bleeding 🩸 feels exactly like a start of another extreme period cycle for me. I literally took an 800mg ibuprofen because the cramps on my left abdomen was igniting and I’m physically tired I just wanna sleep/rest my body. I’m hoping this is my real period and that it’s back. I notice smaller blood clots (which I normally get anyway) so this is why I’m suspecting it’s my real period showing up, aside from the cramping. In addition, I also have noticed the white pimples showing up on my face (on hormonal areas in the face such as my eyebrows and high cheekbones. Thankfully not on my chin yet also). It’s definitely hormonal at this point and looking+feeling very period-y to me. Guess I’ll have to wait starting the birth control ring in a week 💀 I will also continue to monitor of what this bleeding may become (big hopes it’s just my period fr) 🙏

UPDATE 2: So it appears that I just finished my period. It did last a good 4-5 days. Today, November 10th, I started the Nuvaring birth control. My MA journey has been an experience and I’m grateful to have this option available for me. I just hope that the MA hormones are working together with the Nuvaring hormones with this transition, and that I don’t get bad symptoms with the ring. Thank you for witnessing me. 🍓