I ended a love affair with my roommate a couple months ago. I recently discovered I’m a lesbian and we told the other girls we live with we wouldn’t date. But one thing led to another over several weeks and she gave me an orgasm with her fingers in her room one day.

Being with her brought up a ton of repressed feelings i had about my mother. She paid attention to me in ways I wish my own mother did. She undid all the negative words my mom said to me that had become my self talk. Then suddenly she ended things and said she needed space. Then fled to her now current lovers place for a month.

It left me pretty hurt and to add salt to the wound I was going through some things with my actual mother at the time as well. Now we still live together but I still feel angry and resentful about the way things ended. We had a conversation about it but it was not closure for me. She’s so hot and cold I don’t even know when to talk to her.

This is another one in a line of failed relationships (of all kinds) for me. It starting to feel like no one wants to be with me long term I’m just a pretty, fun girl to play with.