This is my last clomid cycle and the last medical help I receive, and I don’t have the energy for it anymore. I don’t want to try and force sex during my fertile period - after 3 years that’s pretty much what it’s become - to still get my period every month. 3 years of this. People have “cycle buddied” me on here and during the time I’ve been trying, they are now on their second pregnancies. I’m just so tired of it all. So tired of the false hope every month.

I’ve gone to a gazillion psychics and been given hundreds of timeframes and none have been correct. The timings just continuously move and it makes me wonder what am I doing to delay the timeframes given to me?

Now I’m thinking maybe it’s just not for me. I can’t bear another cycle of trying.

I told myself after my last clomid cycle, I’m giving it a break for a while. And I don’t even feel like I can do that because I’m now 37 and don’t exactly have the time to waste. But I’m so exhausted…. I’m so. so. tired.