First Possible Pregnancy, Im overwhelmed

I’ve been with my husband for 13yrs married 3yrs. I raised both his/ours(since 3&5,now19/17) kids since day one in our relationship. His ex wife left the picture very early in our relationship. We’ve never had a conversation about having kids, when mentioned we were never on the same page. I fell in love with him for many reasons, my favorite is watching be father. i had this luck of always being surrounded by many kids.

All my friends& husbands friends have kids but I couldn’t relate. I couldn’t share memories, stories, experiences. for over a decade my husband didn’t want more kids. We had one conversation about why we should didn’t go well for me and I promised him I’ll never bring it up again and never spoke about it again. So I pray everyday instead.

Just last week he came inside me for the first time. He hugged me while still inside, caressed me, and I fell into tears. This happened two days in a row during ovulation and not to forget I was that night in my highest fertility window.

Now I’m scared, nervous, happy & filled with anxiety.

Not to mention as much as I love my in law( she’s white, green eyes, honey brown hair) all these years she’s always said I shouldn’t have any because I can’t give her a blond colored eye grand baby. That stuck and convinced myself I shouldn’t. My husband is mixed (white/mexican, hazel eyes, our kids are Mexican, black eyes). The only grand kids my in law has. For the longest I resented her for many years of making statements as such.

If I am pregnant which I’ll find out next week or so. Idk how to announce it.

Idk how my husband feels, he’s not interested in being intimate since.

I don’t want to stress.