Feeling forced ..

I have had 2 abortions due to the father and me being young and now I’m thinking about having my 3rd because I’m in school full time and the symptoms are horrible but I feel like I have to keep this child because I have already had 2 abortions but right now I don’t want a child. I’m not even working because school is so hectic I have to study a lot and my boyfriend isn’t ready to be a father right now but he says it’s my choice. we stay with his family and he pays rent for us. I wake up every morning with horrible headaches and I can’t stand it I’m not sure if I can go through with this but I know how much regret I had about my 2 abortions but I just don’t know what to do as I said I feel like I have to keep it I’m in my early 20s…. Any advice ?