PPD help

Can you get ppd at 5 months?

I want to be able to enjoy my baby again but i feel sad angry angry a lot and i have suicide thoughts.

I’m afraid to tell someone i don’t want to take my baby away from me, i love my baby but i don’t know where this anger comes from im also afraid of a heart attack( while home alone with baby) because my blood pressure is increased by anger to the point my whole head hurts

please don’t judge me and if someone had PPD how did u managed it