I just lost my baby at 18weeks gestation. We thought this one would stick. My baby boy was born into heaven this past weekend. Now I’m at a complete loss on how to survive this Christmas with my other 5 kids and no way to give them anything at all. They are always so excited to receive clothes from Santa and that can’t even happen this year. I feel like I’m failing them and all programs are closed for holiday help, so I can’t even pretend to ask for help. Sorry for a rant but I’m at a complete loss. This makes 7 losses out of 12 pregnancies for me 2 of which were in the 2nd trimester and both boys. With no explanation for why I keep losing them. I don’t know if there are any pieces of my heart that are big enough to break again after this. My 4 girls and 1 lil man were so excited to greet a baby brother. Instead I had to break bad news and watch the tears roll along with my own. Thanks to anyone that reads this. Sorry again for the rant.