Thinking of giving my kids away

So my kids are 4 and 2 and I feel bad for having thoughts of adoption but my support system isn't much of a system.

I've had to quit multiple job when I tried to rely on them. So i cant work the way i need to Then the BDs are dead beats..

I feel like they'd be better with someone else, my son has autism and If my family doesn't pick them up I'm left trying to find a job where I only work 10a to 3p but it's never enough. My car is about to be repossessed when I ask BDS for help my parents for help.. it'd always the same response.. its not my responsibility it's yours ( I have the BDs on CS they don't pay they give what they feel)

I'm tired thinking strongly of adoption or suicide bc I can't do it alone. Edit: Crazy i got down voted. Im trying to hang in for my kids. Im on every asisstance possible and its still a struggle bc i have no support. Advice or general empathy would br appreciated instead of judgement. Also thanks to the 1st poster. Im trying. Edit: thank you guys..i wasnt going to do it. I was just in a bad space just a fleeting thought.. thanks you all@Casey: i am. I have giv funded daycare, ebt, its just hard bc i cant be everywhere at one time. When i try to work i dont have help when it comes to pickibf up my kids. I conctantly have to quit jobs bc of that. My son has autism and i have to look for odd hour jobs like 10a to 3p or something and i havent found that. So i dont know what to do. I feel so lost.