The moment that I had wait for so long for finally came 12/2. I got a positive pregnancy test, and I couldn’t even believe it. I was so happy. Later that week I started spotting but thought it might be implantation. A few days go by and it was progressing, so I went to the ER and while at first they told me I had an ectopic pregnancy, and was probably going to need surgery they later came back to tell me that it wasn’t ectopic, and I was just too early, or I was miscarrying.

Came back this past Monday to check and they said I had a “blighted ovum”. My heart broke instantly….

I passed this the following day. I think that just made it all the more real that it had happened.

How do you not get lost in your own thoughts of why my own body would do this to me? I’m really trying my hardest to be strong and tell myself I will have another chance but it’s so hard.