12DPO BFN, made worse by a 10DPO BFP in previous pregnancy

So I’m 12DPO and due on in 2 days. Well 1 and a half I suppose, seen as it’s the night of my 12DPO. My tests have been stark white negatives. No need for a squint at all. Absolutely nothing there.

And I have cramps, actual AF cramps, not just cramps that are happening around the time of AF.

So yeah, I’m feeling pretty down as we head into 2024. I think it feels worse as I got a strong line at 10DPO with my son. And I kind of know that if it was going to be positive it would be an early one. As my body is very regular etc. I last got pregnant 5.5 years ago.

This shit is hard.