The last couple of days I have been feeling so lost and depressed. Another month of trying even though I told myself, I gave up on peeing on sticks timing when to have sex. I tried so hard glow always work with my ovulation date and period can be a day later no more. Now it’s 3 days past predicated ovulation and still have not ovulate, normally I get ovulation pain nothing. I felt so alone, it breaks my heart when I see so many people around me getting pregnant, some don’t even want it and decided to terminate baby. Here I am trying and trying and not even a second line to show. One miscarriage since 2018, I have done <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>, everyone keeps telling Yahwehs time. How long before my womb finally close up for good. Ian 44 years old, time is not on my side. I kept buying baby clothes for everyone around me, today my husband told me it breaks his heart to see me purchasing these things and he is not able to have his own. His words felt like a dagger taken to my heart and slash it to pieces. He never complained, he is a husband that support me 100% in everything I do. Why can’t I be a mother just like others? Why is it so hard for us women, who truly want and wish for that rainbow baby. This is the only place I can vent and someone actually supported you without discrimination. Good luck to everyone trying for their rainbow babies.