TW: infant loss

It’s 3:46 and I am sobbing. I miss my daughter so much, it’ll be 3 years in February and it doesn’t get easier.. the weight i’ve been carrying for the past couple years has become unbearable. My medication doesn’t help, my weekly therapy sessions doesn’t help, nothing helps. I wouldn’t wish this feeling on a soul, the void in your heart will never be filled. Nothing will ever make me feel better. I just want my baby back. I feel so empty. Life isn’t worth it to me anymore right now, I’ve tried to hold on for my fiancé but I am slowly losing the battle. I envy him so much, he’s doing better than me and always has. I wish I could be how he is, I wish everyday. Why is life so unfair..