I had my first son when I was 19 was a single mom for a few years and have now been married for 8 1/2. My son is 17 and in his junior year of high school. After struggling to conceive, personally coming to terms with it to then decide to try again after my husband decided to do fertility testing of his own and being able to conceive naturally I have so many mixed emotions. I went from planning for college visits and senior pictures to also now thinking about baby showers and registries and starting back at square one. I am excited for my husband to experience these things and for my son to become a big brother after so many years of wanting a sibling but personally, I’m struggling with my feelings. I did surprise them both on Christmas with the announcement and that made me feel slightly more connected to this pregnancy same with starting to tell others but it is still very surreal. Is anyone else really struggling with an age gap in their pregnancies?