I just turned 18 and am currently living in a shelter. I grew up in foster care and when I was in middle school I was living with a gay couple and I really liked them. I liked my siblings. I was treated like their own and after a year they looked into adopting me. I never thought anyone would want me because I'm disabled but they wanted me. I ended up getting removed from their home because they found a family for me that was both a husband and wife and they thought I would do better there with a straight couple. I pleaded for them not to move me and that I'm happy but they did. And the dad in that family raped me and then I was moved 6 other times before I was just put in a group home and now a homeless shelter. I'm pretty stuck in life right now and don't know where life is going for me. But I found one of my dad's even though they never got the chance to adopt me on Facebook and want to reach out. I'm not trying to move in or anything. They were just the one family that I felt like I belonged. I'm wondering if I should reach out or maybe wait because I had a suicide attempt not too long ago and at this moment I couldn't take rejection. They were distraught when they moved me and cried and begged them not to. But maybe they've forgotten about me. Should I reach out or maybe wait a little until I'm better mentally?