Hello! I have not posted on here in ages, but for about a year I was trying to get out of my narcissistic abusive relationship with my ex boyfriend of about 4 years. Long story short, I had feelings of unhappiness for awhile & was questioning if I was in a abusive situation before I broke up with him last year. Well we’d break up but still stay in contact even if I was talking to other people. this happened for MONTHS. I’d meet other guys thinking id be getting away from him finally.

It was toxic & I got back with him at one point. Well about 2/3 months ago, I broke up with him again. And it seems this time, it might be legit. He has ignored me, bad. He’s never ignored me or cut contact before. I know DEEP down it is for the best, to have no contact with someone like this but WHY am I feeling like I NEED him? Like I’m having legit withdrawal feelings? I feel like with leaving a narcissist it’s not a normal breakup at all. I do not cry.i have been reading some books to try and help me get over a “narcissist breakup”.

It’s just not normal, and I know it’s bad for me to reach out but I’m also glad he’s ignoring me? I don’t know what to do. I’ve been focusing on myself and it feels good, doing a men’s cleanse. lol idk I need help. It definitely takes time, I’m just impatient.. I want to LET GO.