Im not sure how I really feel. I'm extremely sad that our baby had to be removed from me on Jan 7th. The day after our second anniversary. My SO had to go through a still born with his ex years ago. Now this? I have 3 other children. Why now? Im 34. They took my tube with the baby because I had so much scare tissue. Im trying to be strong for us both. I hear him cry when he wakes up. I know hes trying to be strong too. I just want this feeling to be over already. I dont wish this pain on no one ever. I'm sorry if I'm babbling but I figure if i wrote it i would feel better. I'm trying to keep positive thoughts. But i keep asking why. What happened. How? My last baby was 2018. No real complications. Is it really because of age? Or are my questions ignorant to ask? Idk. Im sorry.