I’m starting to really struggle! We have not been trying as long as other, and that makes me feel guilty for feeling this way but I also understand that I’m allowed to feel this way….

But my mind and body want to cry multiple times a day knowing we are struggling and that’s not what we expected to happen.

Many people around me are getting pregnant after just starting trying and or are having their babies and it’s mentally so hard for me, at my job babies come in sometimes and that’s also hard for me because I can not wait to become a mother.

I know people say “it will happen when it happens” but that’s not what I want to hear all the time, my fear is what if it doesn’t happen..