I wanted to know what's been going on does anyone know spiritually how to get healing and have things like happiness?

I also have a question it's serious I know I shouldn't ask but it's been bothering me since I can remember I've been upsetting people they get angry upset with me and I feel sorry about it I feel bad it's like my existence upsets people and I don't know what to do for example I was with my friends family traveling and there was a girl my age just staring at me with hate so angry and my friends mom pointed her out to me and we were wondering what was going on with her it was the rage was directed at me and I've noticed that sometimes when I go out to the store people will look at me staring at me like that girl was that day and it makes me feel like why do they hate me so much why are they angry at me and it brought me to question myself for years my self esteem self worth and wanting to fit in so bad wanted to be accepted.

I noticed that I'm not getting treated very well people treat me like I'm dumb, naive, stupid there's no respect with the way certain people have spoken towards me I've been wondering if spiritually I can change this?