I really could use some Christian advice and insight or words of encouragement. I feel like…I can’t even believe I’m saying this. I FEEL like God stopped hearing me. Life has been hard and I’m so grateful for the positive things in my life. I know I have more than many. But the emotional turmoil, the marital strife. It’s becoming too much to bear. And I always thought God would never put more on us than we can bear but I’ve been pleading out. Now, I’ve just paused. I’m just here. I haven’t been going to church or praying and reading the word as much. The comfort it once brought me just doesn’t feel the same. I’m just so angry and depressed. I don’t even know what I’m doing with life at this point. 30 yes old this year. No kids and I don’t want kids anymore either. I’m not perfect and I’ve been helping others so much it’s near drained me to death. Was that my life’s purpose? Everything I thought would be my life is not. I know I’m not perfect but, like why me? Just feeling defeated I guess.