I volunteer at hospice and this family was not ready. Their person was unconscious and they decided to give them something to drink and then they panicked and I was the first person they saw so I went in and pressed the call bell. Their person chocked to death on this protein shake they brought and I cannot get the image out of my head.

I feel so wrong asking the hospice for counselling because that was so traumatic. Like I wasn't there when they died but I was one of the last people to see them alive and that's awful! The nurse talked with me about what happened and all I know is that the family said no one had fed their person so they were giving them something so they wouldn't starve and then they ended up sounding like they were breathing it in and foaming at the mouth.

The nurse told me that it's not my fault and that this is why we don't give anything by mouth to people who are unconscious but I can't get the site of the foaming out of my head.

I'm also 27 weeks pregnant so maybe this is effecting me worse but all I can see is this person foaming and the noise. It was awful.

Hospice nurses how do you do it. This was the worst thing I've ever seen.