Venting

This is stupid I know. I really thought I was pregnant this month. I had spotting 2 days before AF was due and AF was late...or so I thought. Late Wednesday she showed up along with terrible cramps :( the first 2 days my flow was heavier than normal and then pretty much nothing since then...just a little here and there. Why am I still holding out hope I could be pregnant?! I had a friend who's sister had 2 periods while pregnant so I keep thinking of that too. I just need to stop and move on and wait until ovulation week this month to try again!