A turn off

I’ve never been a mushy lovey type of girl, but I do enjoy romance and surprises from time to time. After years of bein wit my man I’m realizin he’s not capable of giving me anythin that I desire when it comes to speaking my love language, we are speakin two different languages from diff planets. I love him, but lately I’ve been feelin emotionally exhausted and disconnected . We have been tryna have a baby for a lil over a year. I know he would be a great father cuz he is one. But at this point I’m just tired of trying. I don’t know if I’m turned off or over it. Now I feel like the goal is just to get preg. Hasn’t told me I’m beautiful in years, will criticize before compliment because he feels self esteem is about self. But I’m not askin for validation, I’m askin for love and reciprocation. I’m in my mid 30s and not sure if I wanna stick it out an pray for the best, or just pack up and start in a different state. But do I really wanna throw all the years away? Especially since we do love each other. I just need more .