I feel so stuck

I’m definitely in a toxic relationship and he’s so mean to me. I’m finding it very hard to leave. Everytime I feel I’m done I just stay.

In the past when I was done I’d just leave and now I’m older and I should have more self respect but I just don’t know why I put up with this shit.

I feel so unhappy. How do I get myself out of this situation and leave? Anytime I’ve tried he stops me and I just stay. I just need guidance. I’ve never found it so hard to just leave.